Moved into a new apartment...a very volatile phase...

Awright guys , here's raising a toast to one of the most volatile phases of my life in terms of personal aspects...moving into a new house, which looks more like a 4 star hotel, right across the road where my previous apartment...so in a way , its the same old para / locale of shatrinagar, lokhandwala...but life never cease to amaze me and continues to throw fillers on how uncertain, the ways of existence can get...specially in a concrete jungle like bombay....till about 4 days back, i was kinda morose with thought of movin into an apartment which looked kinda shabby (becoz thats all i cud afford, to stick around lokhandwala )...and 4 days frm that day , at about 2am, i kept gazing frm my 11th floor bedroom french window..first at the 7 storied building right across the road wherein i had ocupied an apartment for 26 months..with so many million memories -- pleasant & otherwise that have partially shaped my personality pattern as on date...but it definitely will remain one of my fav houses becoz just 2 months before baba passed away in 2005, all the four of us - baba/maa/mamam/ myself spent the most valuable 60 days of ou lives in that 580 sq.ft space...so it will always remain locked in a special corner of my heart...

then i kept gazing at the road, which looked kindov less busy at 2am....on n off cars lookin like lit up match boxes zipping in n around the entire stretch of Linking road...with a small glass of "sula red", the moment felt awesome n weirdly refreshing...i kept sitting on my broad window sil till about 4am....me n my "sula red"....my current apt does look a little too done up to an extent that i feel mildly guilty to be stayin in here...the guilt adds on whn flashes of maa's bedroom in calcutta comes across my memory screen...by joe, its time i do up the whole goddamn 100 year old room...sorry maa, gimme another month or two and its gonna be taken care of....

Women continue to shower their attention on me with varying proportions & ways...some one called me to say that she found it very rude of me to hang up two nights back with a silly excuse...basically my 3 year old ph was givin me trouble and my ph battery was gettin discharged very often..so i told her i'l spk the next morning...and she thought it was an excuse...anyways, i still explained to her over 29 minutes that it was genuinely a technical problem with my ph that made me hang up and not otherwise...Why do women get so creative while on an imagination trip ??

I'm missing someone....to quite an extent and the proprtion of missing in growing in "Geometric Progression"....she spent a few hrs on her way to and back frm her business trip and we did feel a nice / very comfortable / mildly cosy tinge in the air around us....but nothing more..alas !! i so wish she saw my new house....she went back to her work place...i've preserved the awesome liquor choclates & wne she got me......but she's got exams around the corner / plans for higher studies in the immediate horizon....etc....i do understand she's got a bit too much on her plate of immediate life....but why the hell do i keep missing her so often....and i knw she's aware of it....and i knw she doesnt dislike it all that much :):) i so agree, whn she says " u sucha dog "....

Another good thing the year started off with, is the new job offer that Mamam got with Regus...A mid sized American multinational, into workspace outsourcing / with an existing presence in all metros / opening up their shop in calcutta....a small set up wherein the growth opportunity is reasonably steep....mamam did very well in the interview and thereby grabbed the offer...its gonna really really pump up her level of self confidence which was gettin affected by the growing exploitation in her current jo with IBM....above and all, Maa also needed to see a bit more of her...and varying shift timings can be cancerous in the long term for any young individual....so am really really a whole lot relieved that she got thru....
Its been 24 hrs in my new apartment and i continue to get amazed by the impecably done up interiors...but again, its too much of a hotel...my attempt in the immediate fuure is gonna be to make it feel like a home....the huge screen tv / the digital lighting all thru the apartment / the supper rich leather sofa's the granite seating by the french windows all feel very endearing....but waht the hell, may be i'm destined for all this...so what, am on rent...i must have done good karma to qualify to spend some bit of my life in a house like this...i guess its time i shud stop feeling guilty about it....

B R B.......